47 is a number of days since my last post here. Paradoxically I didn’t stop sharing my thoughts here because I have nothing to say, quite contrary, it seems the more things I have to share, ideas to express or the more insights and revelations I have the less eager I am to share them publicly- hence the silence.
Since my latest blog post I’ve finished 22 paintings which means that in last 4 years I’ve managed to finish 974 artworks for Ink Flower Garden project which also means I have only 26 more to make until the project is done. In early 2014, when I set the goal of creating 1000 abstract ink paintings/drawings I really needed that specific goal to give my work structure, to get me motivated and keep me focused but today with the project almost being finished I know that this particular goal of fulfilling the quota of having made 1000 artworks doesn’t mean anything. The commitment to making art, the creative process, everything I’ve learned and experienced is what matters the most. Of course that I will finish the project and make those 26 paintings, not because I am fixated on the number but because of the promise I made to myself 4 years ago. And I will continue to paint after the project is done because I simply adore making art and it makes my life better. Even though I’m aware that dead lines (especially self-imposed ones) don’t mean much either I’d still love to finish the project by the end of 2017, for purely practical reasons, I’ll have to focus on a lot of new stuff with beginning of 2018.
17 is the number of the notebooks/journals on my desk right now (starting from 2015) and looking at them reminds me that, once I’m done with Ink Flower Garden project (a name of which, from this point of view sounds pretty awkward and kind of inappropriate, to be honest, this project could use re-naming) I would like to take some time off just to write down everything I’ve learned, experienced and discovered about painting, creative process, myself during last 4 years. I never intend to share what I write publicly because it’s too personal, I just want to do it for me. I feel that work I have done is like foundation for any of the future work and I need to put all of my ideas and thoughts on paper so I can revisit them whenever I need to.
I'm also planning to continue updating my portfolio (and probably redesign it soon too). Recently I've added 2 more pages to this site, one is a selection of paintings inspired by songs I've been doing on my tumblr all throughout this year simply named Songbook and the other one is called 35mm and it hosts few of my old photographic experiments. I put it up not because I think my photo experiments are particularly representational but to remind myself that I'd like to get back into photography soon :)
49 is the number of days until the end of this year and I'm hoping to make the most of them.