Once upon a time I used to make cute and fun children's illustrations and liked it. But, at one point (about 2.5 years ago) I started hating my work. Things gotten incredibly frustrating and unsatisfying in every possible way so I decided to quit and declared creative bankruptcy. I moved on to other things in life and resolved (in a very dramatic and overly-emotional manner) that I will never ever do anything creative or artistic again, either in professional or personal life. My never ever lasted for about 2 months when I spontaneously started my current art project Ink Flower Garden, a series of abstract ink paintings and drawings. This current work is totally different from illustrations I've made before but they are still made by the same creative mind, by the same creative energy.
I've learned so much by giving up what no longer made me feel good and one of the most important lesson I've came to realize is: YOU CAN ALWAYS RE-INVENT YOURSELF.
We can lose motivation and inspiration to work on our creative projects, passion for creating can ware off, business ventures can fail, we can go bankrupt (either creatively or financially), we can be betrayed by people we trusted the most, whole lot of bad things can happen to us making us feel defeated and desperate and not wanting to even try starting another new project ever again. But no matter what happens we can invent and re-invent ourselves over and over again.
Talent, creativity, willingness to work hard, determination, confidence-all those qualities and many, many more come from the inside, we carry them within ourselves. Nobody else can make you creative, hard-working, courageous or inventive and nobody else can take those qualities away from you- they are yours to keep forever and you can use them and re-use them to start any new project you can think of.
Being aware of this not only gives me peace of mind but also makes me more creative and motivated. I know that no matter what happens, no matter what I lose or how many times I fail I will always be able to re-build and re-invent my life. It gives me more freedom to explore and experiment and enjoy life more and it's one of the lessons I am most grateful to have learned.